I played the Board Game Miracle Choice by myself with the Intention to introduce the game to people who have never played it.
I started the game by reading the meditation from the Game Instructions. During the game which lasted about 30 minutes I selected 4 cards in total: 2 Turnaround Cards (Turnaround cards are Body, Relationship, Needs or Identity), 1 Miracle Card and 1 Real World Card. A Choice Card was not selected during the game..
I didn’t expect the game to be so personal! But of course it would be because Miracle Choice is a game that gives personal feedback.
First Card Selected
I overeat at times – it is a way of seemingly getting comfort, when I have got myself stressed with work or family life. When I am overeating I am increasingly aware that I am no longer hungry but I am trying to fill up an inner sense of emptiness.
Do I blame someone in particular for my overeating?
Is there always a face behind the behaviour?
Staying with the card quietly – which is what you are supposed to do with a Turnaround card – I realised that in some way I was still blaming my Dad for not being present as much as I would have liked when I was growing up. In some way I was using food to substitute for a missing childhood connection or nourishment.
I know intellectually that A Course in Miracles explains that our ultimate sense of emptiness is because we have disconnected from Source (Father, Creator, God, or Love).
Then I realised my Dad was a symbol for Source and forgiving him was a way of reconnecting with Love.
I was aware I needed to forgive myself for holding my Dad responsible for something that was nothing to do with him. I realised that feeling empty (now or when I was a child) is not the result of my Dad’s behaviour.
Second card selected
I still say ‘yes’ when I mean ‘no’ if I want to be seen by others as a nice person.
I took a day of work last week and then I had a phone call in the afternoon asking if I could come in for a couple of hours, as someone was off sick. I really didn’t feel like going to work but I said ‘yes’ because as I was not occupied with anything I could not stop. I was relaxing and enjoying my children who had just come back from school. When I put down the phone I immediately regretted my decision. I had not made a loving decision in that moment. I felt guilt because I had only considered what was best for my employers.
To make a loving decision in that moment I would have needed to focus inside in a way that allowed me to connect to what was best for everyone concerned. Loving myself is not just thinking about myself because then I will just end up feeling guilty. It is not just thinking about my family or about my job. Saying ‘yes’ or ‘no’ will not turn into a confusing decision if I am clear about asking for inner help beyond all personal preferences or the desire to please others. This requires practice so that I am able to practice Self love in the few seconds of a phone call and say ‘yes’ or ‘no’ from that place of true Love.
Third card selected
This card reminded me that I am not separate from others.
It reminded me that I can experience that I am not separate from others even if I am being unkind to them! If I am impatient with my children I don’t feel good because being impatient with them is being impatient with myself.
When I am genuinely kind to my children (or anyone) I feel wonderful because at the same time I am being kind to myself.
Fourth card selected
This quote was a lovely reminder for me that there is only Love.
Overall the game fulfilled in a way that I didn’t predict my intention to introduce the Miracle Choice Board Game to people who have never played it.