This week completes our discussion over the last two weeks about giving and receiving being the same and how this applies to forgiveness. The ego’s forgiveness or “forgiveness-to-destroy” is when I forgive you but I receive nothing in return because I don’t need forgiveness. You are the sinful one needing forgiveness and I am the innocent I one, beyond the need for forgiveness. Your sin and my “gift” of forgiveness is separate to any thoughts I hold about myself.
When you (the ego) “forgive” a sin, there is no gain to you directly. You give charity to one unworthy, merely to point out that you are better, on a higher plane than he whom you forgive. He has no claim on your forgiveness. It holds out a gift to him, but hardly to yourself. W-126.3:1-2, 4-5
If I experience that my forgiveness of you gives me a gift of peace then my ego is in big trouble. The ego want us to experience the “pleasure” of being better than others who we forgive. All of us know the fleeting good feeling that comes from thinking that we are better than someone else.
We need to realize that, not only do we not want the empty, lonely feeling that the ego’s forgiveness reinforces, but that we are missing out in giving a gift to ourselves! Our ego quickly replies what gift? Our ego tells us if we see the other as our self then that means we are a sinner and wrongdoer as well! The ego never wants us to go back to our mind and look at all the wrongdoings that we believe that we have done, because it says God there is waiting there to punish us! To the ego, forgiving anyone in any way other that it version of forgiveness bring no gift, only punishment.
We need to see that the ego’s story is a lie but obviously before we can see the story as false we need to know what the ego’s story is! We need also to know where the story is! The ego’s story is in our minds but once we identify with the ego we end up having no awareness of a mind – only a body. We need lots to help! Help to realize we have a mind and help to look at the ego’s story within our minds.
Today we try to understand the truth that giver and receiver are the same. You will need help to make this meaningful, because it is so alien to the thoughts to which you are accustomed. W-126.8:1-2
If true forgiveness becomes meaningful it means that we accept that separation is meaningless and our self concepts are meaningless. The thoughts we hold about ourselves are wrong, hurtful and insane. To make forgiveness meaningful we need to be willing to consider that everything I believe about myself is false.
In silence, close your eyes upon a world that does not understand forgiveness, and seek sanctuary in the quiet place where thoughts are changed and false beliefs laid by. W126.10:1