I had an interesting experience a few weeks ago and I now I see what my lesson was.
I was concerned about my bank balance dipping under a certain amount and the solution seemed obvious to me – just earn some money. The opportunity of temporary veterinary work came to me without even asking for it. But my ego had crept into the picture and so I needed a wake up call.
After a couple of weeks of earning money I was asked to do more an more work. I was leaving the Miracle Choice projects to one side. One time after asking with my partner, Catia, about arranging to do more veterinary work she said: “I can’t believe you are asking me that!”
“What do you mean?” I replied angrily “I can ask whatever I want!”, and then walked off wondering why I had such a strong reaction.
Later on my son asked “How much more veterinary work are you going to do Daddy?” Catia was in the room and she said “I am glad I am not the only who is asking that!”
The message was so strong that I had to take notice. Was Spirit speaking to me?
I had to look at my motivation for wanting to take on more and more work and having less and less time for the Miracle Choice projects I was doing together with Catia.
I had slipped back into thinking that I will feel better just because I have more money in the bank.
In Spirit’s plan I may feel prompted to go and earn some money but earning the money will not be seen as the solution to my concern about the lack of it. The problem was never the bank balance. The problem was having concern about the amount of money in the bank.
Concern comes from a belief in lack, a worry about being taken care of, an inner unworthiness. The solution is forgiveness of all ideas of lack and a limited self identity. Only a sense of who you really are as a spiritual being will be a good enough solution to end concern of any type.
In Spirit’s plan you have not been given a job so that you can feel less anxious about money. You are doing the job as part of a larger plan that reflects an identity that is not confined to time and space. You are connected inside to your soul and so you move and act as if carried along a path on a summer day.
Forgiveness helps us let go of a false identity. Miracles help us to reconnect to our true identity. There is one solution for all concerns. When we are tempted to think that more money would solve a lot of our concerns we need to make a choice. Do we want to settle for the illusion of solving some concerns or return to a path that will eventually end all concerns completely?