20 years ago when I attended a workshop, everyone was asked to think about the type of work, or career, that would “make their hearts sing.”
I realised a few years later that my heart was singing independent of what work I was doing. That nothing external – work, a partner, money, location, friends or children ever had the power to make my heart sing, the way I wanted it to sing. In fact, searching for something external to make my heart sing got in the way of discovering that my heart was already singing.
The elation and excitement you feel when something external works out the way you want can be confusing because you then think it’s what you really want, when it isn’t. Discernment is required to recognise that you don’t want the experience of being “made happy”. Because being “made happy” reinforces the belief that you’re not complete and fulfilled inside.
Inside is a song that is the memory of your true identity. Your heart is already singing it. When you hear that forgotten song, you will find yourself spontaneously dancing to its tune. I love the words from the section called “The Forgotten Song” in A Course in Miracles.
Listen, – perhaps you catch a hint of an ancient state not quite forgotten; dim,
perhaps, and yet not altogether unfamiliar, like a song whose name is long forgotten, and the circumstances in which you heard completely unremembered. Not the whole song has stayed with you, but just a little wisp of melody, attached not to a person or a place or anything particular. But you remember, from just this little part, how lovely was thesong, how wonderful the setting where you heard it, and how you loved those who were there and listened with you. A Course in Miracles, Text-21.I.6.
When that melody comes through you, what you do in the world, and how you treat others, will be your dance of love. A beautiful expression of your inner identity. A wonderful reminder to all you meet, that deep inside, the same love is singing to them as well as to you.
The process of getting really good at listening to love’s song is not that you strain and strain your inner ear because the song is so hard to hear. You just stop listening to the loud music of the ego, which speaks of individuality, separation, conflict, lack and loss. First the loud clammering of your neediness and your desire for things to work out, need to lose their attractiveness before you can hear anything else. The noise of the ego’ song, even though it seems to be superficially attractive, is in fact painful, because listening to it is how you forget the song of love that truly makes your heart sing.
Next week, in Part 2, I will ask the question: “Why are you afraid to let your heart sing?”