I’ve been a coffee lover for years. In addition to its flavor, I always liked the charming and cozy idea around it. At least, that’s how I interpreted and experienced it until something unexpected happened. At the end of last year, when I was on holiday in Brazil, I had a very clear dream where I was going through a spiritual treatment and, at the end of the session, the medium said to me in a humourous tone: “I think you already know what I’m going to tell you and you won’t like it.” And I did know, I knew he was going to tell me that I had to stop drinking coffee! After this inner realization, he then concluded by confirming, “You must take coffee completely out of your life to deepen your spiritual connection.” Oh really!
I woke up immediately, and because the dream was so strong, clear and fresh, I began to tell James and my children. We sat down for breakfast and, as usual, I was having my beloved coffee. I was still digesting the dream, playing with the idea, not receiving it literally. James and the kids then challenged me by asking if that might be my last cup of coffee. I laughed, said maybe, but without actually wanting it to be. My daughter could not contain herself and even took a photo to record this “historical moment”.
That same day, we went out to lunch and walked a good stretch to enjoy the neighbourhood under a 30 degree sun. I started to feel not very well, my head was hurting. I thought it was the heat. By the time we got to the restaurant, I was dizzy. After ordering lunch, I began to feel sick to my stomach. When the plate arrived, I could not even eat. After that it was three days of malaise, not wanting to eat much, just coconut water and no desire to drink coffee! When I got better and the urge to drink coffee did not come back.
That’s strange I thought! Is my dream manifesting without my conscious awareness? Is the spiritual plane giving me strength for what I need to do?” I decided to play the game and try out the new phase. With the reminders of coffee around me, tempting me here and there, I was simply uninterested. I was experiencing a whole new situation.
All this was interesting, curious and funny, until it began to get weird. More than a month passed and the desire for coffee had not come back. My mind then began to question, “What about that tasty ritual in the morning with your cup of coffee that you honored and enjoyed so much? And the meeting with friends to have “that” coffee? And fun conversations with your like minded coffee companions? Will they not happen again? Never??”. My ego began to become restless, after all, not to drink coffee any more means to lose a certain identity, an identity that is associated with an idea, a style, a movement, certain moments, groups and places.
If I’m going to go on for the rest of my life without coffee, whether it’s good or not, is not the real point here. What is important is to realize how many of our thoughts and actions are linked to an image, to the need for confirmation, to a confused being and not to the connection with our true Self.
All this reminds me of what I once heard from Luís Falcão, a South African teacher of A Course in Miracles. He sometimes asks people if they would choose fullness, the Real World, complete awakening, pure Love on the condition that they totally forget their past identities. An interesting proposition. We talk about an ideal state, we aim to get there, idolize those who live it, but at the same time, we are often not ready to detach ourselves from our personality and the reality that we perceive and gives us so much importance.
What would it be like to let go of your identity, not partially, but totally? I’m not suggesting you do this, but maybe start by questioning the beliefs, images, and attachments that you believe you can not live without?
By Catia Vasconcelos
James has been thinking about how the Miracle Choice Games are a gift. A gift for you as a player and as a facilitator. He has also been thinking how the game is a gift in his own life. Here is part 1 of 3 instalments of why the game is a gift:
What exactly is the gift for you as a player?
As a player you put yourself in an unique situation. Never before have you opened yourself to look at the issue that is bothering you in this way:
You have invited your inner guide to help you.
You roll a dice trusting not in luck but in the rightness of the number. Your heart knows there are no mistakes, you are open to certainty.
You cut the pack of cards in a seemingly random way, yet you know the perfect card is coming to you.
You are in the zone.
You have never before allow yourself to be open for so much inner help at the same time.
And if you are taking part in a facilitated or guided game you have supercharged the moment. When your insights come, when something deep is changing, your facilitator or guide is there as an acknowledging presence. If you have doubts, if resistance arises, or if you become frightened of the game journey you can be thankful there is support available.
Much Love, Catia, Juliana and James