What do you answer when someone asks you who you are?
Try now, quietly, to answer that question to yourself.
When I try to define myself, I have a feeling of confinement. The more adjectives, definitions, labels, characteristics, functions and roles I add to what I believe to be my personality, the less I become, the less I can be really free.
It is hard to talk about ourselves without an external reference. For example, when I say that I am a mother, there must be a child. When I say that I am a therapist, there needs to be someone to whom I apply the therapy. When I say that I am Juliana, I try to summarize my whole being in a single word that is a reference for people. Who would I then be if not for these people?
It is awkward to think about it. Certainly, I’m a different Juliana for each of the people around me. Each one creates an image of me and I feel that, at the same time that I am all these images, I am none of them. Have you noticed how much effort we put into trying to get people to have a certain image of us?
When I try to define myself, it’s as if I take a picture of the present moment and want to perpetuate it. Within this rigidity on defining my own personality, I submit to upholding the standards that I think define me.
If I tread the path of self-knowledge and think that projecting my frustrations on someone will not heal my pain, I do not allow any feelings I consider negative to emerge. I do not allow myself to feel anger; I do not allow myself to be fearful. All this because, in the role I chose, these feelings do not fit in. And so we become more and more adamant.
Much has been said lately of repression and control because of the political moment we are going through. However, I keep thinking about how we repress ourselves and, consequently, how we repress the people around us.
In trying to be good, we don’t allow ourselves to simply be.
I believe that our attempt to create a solid and permanent personality stems from a fear that, if it is not so, how can we be sure of our existence? How do I know that I exist, if my form, my character, is not a constant? If sometimes I am one way and sometimes another?
Behind everything we manifest in form there is our true Self. The true Self does not change. I like to think that we are love manifested in form, although it often does not seem to be so. When I remember that I am love, I can simply be, without worrying about anything. I can love myself enough to accept myself, just like that, just the way I am.
All fear ends when proof of your existence is established. All fear is based on your inability to recognize love and thus who you are and who God is. How could you not have been fearful with doubt as powerful as this? How can you not rejoice when doubt is gone and love fills all the space that doubt once occupied? No shadows linger when doubt is gone. Nothing stands between the child of God and the child’s own Source. There remain no clouds to block the sun, and night gives way to day. A Course of Love C4.5
by Juliana Kurokawa, Miracle Choice Trainer and Facilitator
In the business for preparing for two online conferences the blog/newsletter was not sent out yesterday! Miracle Choice is literally playing a major role in the November Conference “Awaken to Love.” https://www.awaken-to-love.com/ and James is helping to organize the conferences. The November conference is the first Global online conference based on A Course in Miracles. It runs for a full 2 weeks, 11-25 November, and all content is free to watch and participate in for 2 days! It then becomes available as part of the conference package. More details later and now you can register and keep up to date. Miracle choice games will be available to play online every day in English, Portuguese, Spanish and even German! May thanks to the Miracle Choice Facilitators who are making this happen!
James, Juliana and Catia